I thought when i finished my degree, i would feel like this:

                           But i felt more like below, I find myself thinking so now what

     I had so much ideas about how i was going to use my spare time and get fit

The reality is that all i have done so far is stuff my face with food

 I do actually go to the gym but only just to watch TV as my hall doesn't have a coaxial port

I thought i would go wild and party all night long 

But the reality is that i am to tired, i just stay at home, watch netflix and sleep all day long

I had a massive pile of books and i assumed that i would spend my free time just reading my way through.

The reality is that i just stay in bed and sleep all night long

I thought i would take a road trip, travel all around the world and just experience other cultures

The reality is that i remembered about all my gbese(debts) and then i was like nah this ain't  going to work

        I thought when i do start socializing and drink, it would look something like this

                 The reality is that i really end up looking more like a scattered chicken 

                                     Life after exams really looks more like this

                                     But after months and months of doing this 

AND THIS

AND THIS

I think i more than deserve to slob it out despite the fact that my parents think otherwise

Why Stress Yourself ????

Today I had a moment of eureka or something like that

Why do we always stress over stuff ??

For the past two months, I have been going crazy. I am stressed over so much stuff

Let me list a few:

Job: Would I ever get a graduate job...I haven’t graduate yet but I am stressed what happens if I don’t get one...Would I just be at home all day...I hate being idle?

Life Partner: Would I end up alone all the days of my life...I recently just broke up with my boyfriend of 5 years and it doesn’t really help that I am at that age where my parents keep on reminding me not to be left behind on the shelf... More than often I find myself wondering about whom my future husband will be or am I doomed to end up alone

Religious Life: Would I ever have a close relationship with God. It doesn’t not help that all my friends are like firebrand Christians...When I compare myself to my friend I feel like the worst Christian ever. My friends going to prayer meetings and fellowship bi-weekly and they all observe daily devotion and they go to church every Sunday. Whilst me on the other hand I struggle to read my bible once a week and going to church every Sunday is hard

My Family: I come from a polygamous family and we are not exactly keen on showing emotions...Whilst me on the other hand I am the neediest and attention seeking child ever. I like to be reminded at least once a month that I am loved by my family but trust me it doesn’t happen. My day told me sometime a year ago that he loved me and I swear I still have that text message. I even printed it out and hang it over my desk because God knows the next time he is going to tell me that

Friends: I have no friends, as in zero and I am finding myself worrying when I get married who are going to be my guests or who would be on my bridal train if I have no friends. As a result I find myself hanging on to stupid and blood sucking friends. All in the name of trying to gather friends

Career: One of the reasons me and my ex didn’t work put was because he thought I was too driven. If you come from a polygamous family then you will understand my plight...We all used to dance to whatever tune my dad played...If my mom and dad were fighting, he could decide that he wasn’t going to give us school fees money and thankfully my mother had businesses on the side he didn’t know about so she was able to support and provide every time he started his wahala.. My mother always taught me from birth no to depend on any man and too always work for myself and I guess this has affected all my relationships. Because I find it hard to let go and let any man take the reins...I don’t know am I being too driven or sensible...Someone please help

Future: I don’t know what I want to do with my future honestly. I am currently doing masters in EEE but I am not too sure that I wanted to do EEE. I only did it because everyone said if you doing a degree in EEE you can do anything.

Weight: I worry a lot about my weight. I was born with wide hips and thick/thunder thighs. It does not help that the current trend is stick thin girls. I find myself wondering why will anyhow pick me over a lepa. I know that no matter how much I visit the gym my hips will still remain the same...What is a girl to do now?

If I were to list everything all the things I bothered about you would think this girl is just foolish. It is also funny how most of the things I am thinking about are very shallow. People are thinking of where their next meal is going to come for and I here I am thinking of nonsense but to each his own..

After listing all my faults I came to the decision that I am just going to live in the moment. If I was to seriously think about all these things I listed above, I will kill myself with worry and would not achieve anything in my life... I am just going to love myself and live life to the fullest...At least if I were to die I would know I live a fulfilled life and I loved myself even if no one did as opposed to living a miserable and forever moaning life. Why stress myself over things I do not have the power to change...I am going to work hard and hopefully the career and job will work out. I am going to go with the flow and move closer to God, I can’t guarantee that I will pray every day but I doubt God will love me less if I miss one day of prayer.. Body wise I am going to just revel in the body that has given me after all one man’s poison is another man’s gold. I am going to love myself and live life I can’t force family or anyone to love me but I sure as hell can love myself

I read a book that really helped as well; it was titled the Lady, her lover and her lord by T.D. Jakes. I think everywoman should read this book at least once in their lifetime. I have a spare copy so if anyone is interested I don’t mind posting it out as long as you are in the UK, posting anywhere else is long o.if I am in a good mood I just might.

There rant over..Life goes on J

Selah

Oyinkan

Hi (Checking In)

Cant believe it is almost been a year since my last post
Really missed you guys and so much has happened
Let me update you on what i have been doing so far,you know the placement i was talking about in my previous post below..Well guess what i got it!!!!!!!!!!
I have been on placement since last year June.i am loving/hating it at the same time
The real working world is hard oo, it is nothing like i imagined but oh well
Broke up FINALLY with my boyfriend of six years and it was about freaking time
I promise to update more regularly from now on
Hope everyone has been well

Placement Hunting

Hmm when I first got this interview I felt exclusive with myself feeling like person wey don hammer.
Right now I ain't feeling too great.
It is now the morning of the interview and I am waiting for the train to take me there, come see bare guys wey dey go for this same interview
Even the taxi driver said that i was the fifth person that was going for the interview that he has picked up today. Wooaw
Right now there about 15 of us waiting to catch the same train to the same interview from just my uni alone oo talkless of other universities we dey uk. O boy you go fear competition if you dey hear right now..
By the way this company is so bloody sexist can u believe I am the only girl among 15 boys.
Why am I complaining even better for me self cuz ladies are so damn ruthless and now maybe I can even get sympathy vote
Baba God this na my one time to shine please Abeg don't let my nervousness get in the way oo
Would update you later as the day goes
Now it's time to wear my ovaries on the outside and show these dogs who is boss bitch is!!!!!
Hmm quick update:
got to where I was gonna change trains and overconfidence no go kill me. You won't believe I was standing at the wrong platform all the while.
I even saw one of the peeeps waiting for the right train on the other platform and was feeling victorious and thinking 1 man down.
Something in me just said ask, that's how the train guy was like I was on the wrong platform 2 mins to the time the train was gonna arrive. Deng I have never ran that fast in my life oo
Today has even confirmed that I need to lose weight asap. As per my ass was dragging me down when I was running self
Anyhow now I am on the right train, no more changes
Just hope I don't fall asleep and miss my train stop
I really also hope that I dont have to do my presentation in front of other candidates.
Please God I am begging you
Alright going to do some last minute preparation...
Ok just realised that all those fifteen people I said earlier aren't going to the same interview apparently they are all going for another placement interview in birmingham
So now competition has declined to just 5 of us from my Uni don't know about other uni's
I am not even going to think about competition again
Me I must to go on placement oo
I have never wanted or worked so hard for anything in my life like I have done for placement
Update:
Mehn people in this place are so gross sometimes
Early morning like this when I am feeling all good and wonderful, on the train the guy is drinking at freaking 7 am in the morning and he reeks of cigarette as well. Some people just don't have respect for themselves, their body or God self... How can someone wake up
Early mormo like this and decide the first thing I am gonna is drink
Putting that aside, I am still feeling good on the train, jamming my naija praise & worship whilst also doing last minute preparations and reading my bible. I realise that what you listen to & read in morning can go a long way in determining how you look at the coming day.
Honestly don't know why i don't blog more often. It is a really fun experience so far today and I am loving it
Update:
I have arrived at my destination oo
It was pouring down when I got there, stupid me did not bring coat or umbrella
I hope I don't look like a drowned bear when I get there oo
The place ain't too bad, I can see myself living here
Nice city and all, I hope they have an African shop though cuz that one can cause wahala
Pls before I start fantasising living here let me get the job first ooo,
Update:
Just finished at 5 pm since 10 am
I am so tired and I have a migrane to add
I just want to go home, eat and sleep
Recap on the day: I was so nervous that I rushed my presentation so that was crap
Then they now did test, was so unprepared for this
To make it worse it wad two tests: mechanical & electrical & maths
I am an electrical engineer so you deffo don't need me to tell you how awful the mechanical test was . Just in case you wanted to know, it sucked badly
The maths & electrical tests was good really enjoyed it
Afterwards we now went on luck break, the company no try at all upon all the money wey dey don fap from oil . The food no teek at all
Also the recruiter kept on looking at my shoes. They were black with like gold rings & studs on top of them. Now I feel like o should have worn more sensible shoes self but oh well what has happened has happened
Interview was ok, I felt more comfortable and more in my zones. In summary the whole day is really exhausting and tiring and Guess what I am going to do this again next week for anoda company.
Hmm with all this stress, if I don't get a job. I will curse all these companies one by one.
Gotta go now
I need to crash badly

Testimony Time

Hmmm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Peeps i have a fantastic testimony coming your way
I just need to get it confirmed & cemented before i start yelling
I am so happy rite now that i am finding it hard to bottle this all in for the time being
God has been over good to me oo, to think that i am always doubting Baba God
God na you be OGA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Don't worry by end of next week,i gast share the good news with you
All i can say right now is that when God is testing you or when you are going through trying times, don't give up because God is watching and you never know your blessing may just be round the corner
On the bright side, for valentine's day, me & my girlfriends had a cooking marathon
Below are the pics of the food & goodies we made
Enjoy
If you need recipes just send me a message

I made Chapman & Suya

So i was bored this summer, Me and my friend decided to cook and experiment
After much research, we made Chapman & Suya
Wow..it was the livest thing ever, i even perfected my suya spice mix
Who knew that the only thing that all these suya spice they sell in shops were missing was just grounded groundnut..It Really makes a difference ooo
The chapman was another story... After drinking this i realise that i have a very poor alcohol intolerance. The drinks literally knocks me out
My recipe for the Chapman is:
Sprite
Fanta
Grenadine Syrup
Chapman( These replace angostura bitters as apparently the company that makes it has gone bust )
Ice
Concentrated Lemon Juice
Lemon
Lime
Curly Straw and ENJOY!!!!!
If u want the recipe for the suya, then you are going to have to pay oo

Change

Hey Guys,
The scene that you see below is of my friends sleeping off after an all nighter period.
During examination period last year.. we all decided to do an all nighter for this module that we were really worried about. All i can say is never read or do an all nighter with friends, it is like a perfect recipe for disaster..
We first started reading for like the first hour, then we started gisting and watching comedy shows on YouTube, from there we progressed on to playing games and watching movies. At about 3pm we were hungry, so we decided to order food. We now decided to do buffet, each person orders a different dish and then we spread it out on the table like a buffet and go round taking samples of each dish.
It was an awesome experience that i will definitely not be repeating again, i didn't get any work done.... It was fun though
The person that surprised me the most was my friend Bev as per the chick came ready for battle. To Computer IT room this chick brought wrapper, sponge and toothbrush. When she was tired she used her bag as pillow and then proceeded to use the wrapper as blanket..I was like woaw!!!!!!Seriously was she expecting to have her shower in the department or what!!!!!
I am really goona miss this when we all graduate this year.This is one of the may reasons why i hate change
I have so gotten used to this guys, it gonna be weird not seeing them constantly